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Two Random Thoughts

For whatever reason, my old blogspot site has been sending people over here more frequently than in the past, so I decided to go take a look at it again.  Nothing has changed on it since last APril when I moved my blog to here.  Everything remains as I left it.   As I was looking things over, I noticed my weight ticker.   Ironically, on April 24, 2010, I weighed the EXACT same as I weigh today.

I began to get really discouraged and to spiral.  This is SOOO not good.  I hated the feeling of self defeat that rose up in me.  That feeling that screamed you are the same as you have always been and you will never change no matter how much testing or working out or changing of behaviors you do….you are destined to be fat your whole life, so you might as well give up!

Yeah.  That.  Awful.  Feeling.

Then I realized something. I updated the ticker on wordpress the other day.   I clicked on blogspot’s ticker and what do you know?  It updated here too! What a relief!

So, I don’t know what I weighed on April 24, 2010.   I suppose I could go into the ticker archives and see but it doesn’t matter.  I am not the same person I was back then.  I didn’t have the knowledge I have now.  Yesterday doesn’t matter.  Only today matters.

I can choose to live in regret of the past year and the seemingly lack of progress or I can look back and see where I was and who I was and compare that to now.  I am a better person.  More committed than ever to this journey.  I have learned much about discipline and how much of it is required to have what I want.  I have learned that I am far stronger than I think I am.  And I have learned that there is NOTHING I cannot do!

So.  That. Awful. Feeling?  Be Gone!

Second random thought.

Saturdays with nothing to do are awful for me as far as eating is concerned.  If I am not busy and scheduled, I will eat anything and everything.  I get lazy and feel entitled to be lazy because I have worked so hard the rest of the week.  That blasted entitlement, just gets me in trouble.  That feeling has to go too!



I have a friend (Imagine that!).  His name is Larry.  Larry is quite talented, although I had no idea how much until I FINALLY went to his website that he kept announcing about on Facebook.  I knew he was a writer.  Sadly, I have never read his book.  I aim to change that!  I didn’t know though that he was a cartoonist as well.

While exploring his site, I found these two cartoons that fit my life for sure and maybe yours.  Thanks Larry Boy for letting me use them!

"Forget it, Josh. I tried walking once. It doesn't work."

"Forget it, Josh. I tried walking once. It doesn't work."

Yeah, for all of you who have tried dieting before…keep trying, eventually we will get it right…don’t listen to the naysayers.

"Now would you like some help?"

"Now would you like some help?"

Yeah, I don’t often ask for help until it is too late or I am desperate for it and practically buried.  Funny thing is, I don’t because I think I will be inconveniencing people to do so…and yet my friends are usually standing by watching me struggle and ready to help as soon as I say the word.  Not inconvenienced at all. Happy to help and often glad I finally gave in and let them.  If anything they are more annoyed when it is obvious I need help and don’t ask or don’t let them help.  Sheesh!  Gotta drop the pride!

Enjoy the cartoons and check out Larry’s work!