I have never been the stereotypical girl who loves to shop. I hunt. I make a list of what I need and go in search of those items. If I don’t find it within 5 minutes in a store, I walk out. I don’t typically wander into a random store and look around. I don’t go to the mall, ever! I know, you might be questioning whether I am a girl at all at this point, but trust me, I am.
My experiences with shopping have never been pleasant. As a child, in 6th grade, I didn’t fit in the clothes designed for the average 6th grader. I had to go up to the next level to find clothes to fit. By the time I was in high school, I was already in the “plus” size section, but they didn’t really have that then. Needless to say, finding clothes that fit and were cute has ALWAYS been a challenge. Is it any wonder that I avoid stores at all costs, when every time I enter one I have to buy another size up and leave feeling awful about myself?
This past week, I was forced to have to go shopping. My clothes just don’t fit me any more. I am oh so blessed with “good hips” so while the pants will still stay on my hips, despite being super loose in the waist, they just look like I am wearing a saggy diaper these days. Way too baggy in the butt and legs.
I knew this day was coming where I would have to go shopping but I didn’t want to spend a ton of money on my transitional clothing and I have NEVER had luck at the thrift stores, mainly because I don’t have the patience to look at every piece of clothing to determine its worth. But you know you gotta suck it up when your boss approaches you about your saggy bottom pants.
SO I sucked it up and off I went to the thrift store. I kept picking things up and finding things I liked but when I tried it on I was shocked to discover almost everything I picked up was way too big. I couldn’t wrap my head around what was happening. This has NEVER been my experience. Then I realized, I am picking up clothes in the sizes that I wore 5 months ago or MORE.
Then began the discovering of my new size.
What an adventure.
A delight really.
I have never known the experience of shopping and having things be too big. Far too often, the BIGGEST size offered was still too small. I have never known what it was like to have to go DOWN in size in a store. 4 years ago, I was fast approaching a size that one could only get online and was quickly getting relegated to all elastic waisted pants and oversize floral button down prints. That is no longer the case.
I am down to a size 22, and yes that is 10 sizes down from when I started 4 years ago. You might wonder why I never had this experience before now. Hunting takes the joy from shopping. You don’t allow yourself to delight in the find. You get what you need and you get out. Fast.
This week, I allowed myself the delight of actually shopping and discovering my new size all while knowing that soon enough my size won’t be a 2 digit number anymore.