The past week and a half has been great, since coming off my no calorie counting break. I have been having fun with workouts again(most of the time) and not beating myself up if I miss one (most of the time) and not thinking about my Saturday weigh in (most of the time).
Until….the last 2 days….
The last 2 days have been a constant battle to choose well with my food, to not eat friend chicken, or cookies or the flavor of this week, cheezits by the boxful and to get to the gym.
I have NOT been consciously thinking about the weigh in (most of the time) so I didn’t think I was anxious about it. But this morning I woke up a little anxious, realizing I missed my alarm for a morning workout and my thought was…“No!!! I only have 2 days left to get as much weight off as possible before my weigh in!”
Ding Ding!!! Hello! Yep…I am anxious a bit, ya think? And working overtime not to be.
And as I realized it, I think I have been the last 2 days. My actions (or the fighting of urges) often speak louder than my actual emotions and I should open my eyes and listen. If I paid attention to those like I have learned to look for the actual emotion, perhaps I would have seen what was happening sooner.
I can’t change what is happening. I can’t simply stop an emotion from being there nor can I deny it or minimize it, but I do know one who can give me peace while I wait and see. So that is what I am doing and asking for this morning.
John 14:27 Yup, that is what I am claiming today and tomorrow and well shoot…forever I guess!