Today I got up and went to the gym in the morning and did the strength piece of my workout. It only took about 30 minutes, but that is ok.
This evening, I was NOT feeling like going to the gym for at least an hour of cardio. But here is what I know. My trail run yesterday didn’t happen and I know at least 2 days this week there will not be a 2nd workout…and I know my first official weigh in with Demond is coming up on Saturday. SO when I arrived at the gym, I sat in the parking lot texting Demond and Coach and basically procrastinating my entrance. Then I actually laid my seat back and took a 30 minute power nap thinking that would help.
It actually did! I was kinda surprised. Usually short naps make me crabby, but apparently I got just enough and it was what I needed to be able to power my way through an hour of cardio that included the stairway to heaven, walking incline intervals, the Octane and bike intervals.
For the day, I burned 800 calories. Kinda of disappointing until I realized, I didn’t do 2 cardio workouts today. If I had included at least 20 minutes of cardio this morning, I would have surely hit 1000+ easily. Lesson learned.
I have to admit, I am kind of nervous for the weigh in. I have been working hard to do what Demond says to do and to not slack or cheat or anything. I know I am not perfect and there is no way to do this all perfectly, but I am doing my best. There is still a part of me that kind of expects a no loss week again. I mean, it has been my pattern for over a year and a half. Yet there is a part of me that is really hoping that this change, having Demond working with me is the THING that is gonna change that pattern. I know I am hoping alot, because if I wasn’t I wouldn’t be so nervous. If I wasn’t hoping then I wouldn’t be battling ways to sabotage myself so that there would at least be a justifiable reason for poor or mediocre results.
I don’t plan on sabotaging myself, I just know the thoughts are there. Yesterday, I battled all day with wanting fast food. In fact that is part of why I didn’t get my run in. I got to the state park only to find all the bathrooms locked so I couldn’t change and the only places nearby to change were fast food joints and I wasn’t about to walk into one of those places in the state of craving I was in and to go anywhere else, meant not enough time.
I have noticed the last 2 days being really low on calories. Not intentionally so, it just happened. Partly because I didn’t plan well and partly I think out of nerves.
I think once I get through this weigh in and I see results, the extreme nerves will start to lessen. But for now, Demond’s assistant, Christina, says I just need to calm down!!
Working on that…for reals.