Never Going Back To OK!

I was listening to this song while running today and it seemed fitting to my state of mind. 

Never Going Back To OK  – THE AFTERS

It’s not the end but it feels like it is
I’m waking up like I’m back from the dead
I’m stepping out and it feels so free
But as long as I’m moving it’s alright

I feel alive and it hurts for a change
I’m looking back its hard to believe
That I was cool with the days that I wasted
Complacent and tasteless and bored
But that was yesterday

We’re never going back to ok
We’re never going back to easy
We’re never going back to the way it was
We’re never going back to ok

This discontent, like a slap in the face
A mediocre I’ve had enough of this place
This party’s over and I’m moving away
From the frills of your Beverly Hills
That was yesterday

We’re here to stay
This is our time
My only life
Our chance to live


I am most definitely NOT going back to a place of settling and mediocrity.   I am going for a much bigger life.  It started with my health, continues with my health, and is expanding out!  I love it!

I am so glad I started this blog.  I have been re-reading it…again…and am so excited to be able to look back and see exactly where I have been.  At some points I can vividly remember feeling the way I did.  At other points I had to think, “wow, I felt THAT way?”  I started out uncertain of where this would go last April and even more uncertain of how to make my goals happen.  I changed one thing at a time and built up from that point.

I still have a long way to go.  I want to write, it is “only” 57 pounds.  But I know it is far more than that. 

It is over 25% of my goal. 

It is 16% of my starting weight.

It is 4 pants sizes.

It is running, not just walking.

It is spinning, pilates, aerobics, swimming.

It is the results of hard work.  Commitment. Perseverance. Dedication. Faithfulness.

It is STANDING in the face of Fear. Doubt. Uncertainty. Pain.  Anger…COURAGE!

It is the result of allowing myself to be loved and loved well.

These results are MY results. I have worked for them.  But so have you.  Every one of you that has commented on a post, sent an email, a text, gave a phone call, went to the gym with me, or helped propel my butt there, I would not be where I am today without you.  Those that I allowed in to my heart and headspace while going through Retelling, I definitely would not be here without you!

So thank you friends, one and all.  My results are your results too!  And I am not going back!

Moving forward…On the Road…


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