Posted by: Kim | December 6, 2009

I’m Not Complaining, But…

Just a quickie post here as I try to pack to head to GR for a couple of days with Alicia, aka Tailwagger.

I am having a clothes crisis of a grand magnitude.  I am suddenly realizing that having purged much of what doesn’t fit anymore, I am left with 5 work outfits, 2 pairs of pants that fit me now that are not work appropriate (jeans and cargo’s) and one, yes only ONE shirt that is long sleeve and Michigan winter appropriate that is NOT workout gear.

I am officially taking donations of size 24 clothes that you no longer fit you and that you want to purge yourself of forever or cash so I can go buy some things.  LOL…ok I am only slightly kidding.

Seriously, all us weight loss bloggers should start a clothing exchange.  Who can afford to purchase all the clothes necessary to get us through some major body transformations while still looking halfway decent.

Holla!

OK, I am out, I need to dry my hair so we can get on the road.  We have already missed church, but we are NOT missing lunch with Aaron…

Posted by: Kim | December 1, 2009

4.2 Baby!!!!

Could this next week prove to be the end of stuckedness?  Could it be the week I get out of the 290’s?  Is it going to be the week that I significantly exceed 65 lbs lost?

After this weeks weigh in, I have great hopes that it is possible!  This morning, I officially weighed in and tonight discovered I lost 4.2 lbs since last week!   Woot!!  Woot!!I am so excited.

AND I know this next week is not going to be easy.  I have a friend coming to town and then we are travelling to GR.  All of this means that there may be more eating out than normal for me. AND less time to work out.

Alicia!  You may be going for “walks” with me or perhaps I will drag you to the gym once or twice!  I am determined that I will not gain any of this 4.2 back!  It will take work and diligence but more than that….discipline….when I just want to have fun with my friend and in GR!!

Sooo here is to another week….and here is to milestones being broken!

Posted by: Kim | November 30, 2009

Deciding On My Plan

Diane, over at Fit to the Finish had a great post today about How You Decide Which Plan to Follow.  My response was far too long for a comment so I thought I would just make my own blog post about my Aha moment.

Basically, I am not sure I had one.   I cannot recall a specific moment or time that I said, “Yes, now I am ready to lose weight!”  If anything it was a process and in reality I probably chose the worst time for an emotional eater to begin to try to lose weight.

God had been working on me all summer long (2008) on various areas of my life and I had finally stopped resisting him in some of those areas.  Namely, I agreed to look at how sexual abuse as a child had impacted my life.   I was in counseling and I had just begun this class that would walk me through my story from beginning to end.  I had inadvertently taken the summer off of whatever “plan” I had been on before and had no immediate plans to start-up again.

I had previously tried all sorts of plans. I had done Curves, and weight watchers, calorie counting and low carb diets.  I knew what needed to be done, I just didn’t want to do it, I guess.   In September as I began to watch the latest season of TBL, I decided I would try one more time, but this time, I would tell no one.  No one to watch me.  No one to hold me accountable.  No one to know if I failed again.

After 2 weeks of doing I have no idea what, I was too excited to not tell anyone.  SO I told Aaron.   He of course was quite excited and happy for me, offering to support me in any way he could.   SInce then my basic plan has been to count calories. However the specifics of that plan change all the time.  How many calories has changed as my body changes and adjusts.  How i track those calories has gone through several renovations.  Exercise was at first minimal and has increased over time.

One thing has been constant though.  I have chosen to do this.  For me. Not or anyone else. I am choosing me every day.  Not perfectly and certainly not without some major failing going on at times.   Diane is right.  The plan itself doesn’t matter.  What matters is am I making good choices every day that are going to benefit my health and vision or not.

So I guess, how I chose a plan still has not been answered.  I don’t think I chose the plan, I think it chose me as I chose me.   What has worked simply evolved as I chose to live and to live abundantly!

Posted by: Kim | November 29, 2009

Run. NO!

Friday morning after the Turkey Trot, I Could hardly move.  Rising and sitting was a painful process that now involved my arms.  I didn’t know you could hurt so much.  Dumb me, never thought about taking ibuprofen!  Thankfully, a co-worker suggested it. I did. It worked. By Friday evening, I was better. A little.

Saturday came and it was a beautiful day.   My legs felt great and I wanted to go for a run.  I knew I shouldn’t over do it though. So I figured a brief 1-2 mile run would be enough to test the legs and work out the last of the jello.

I headed for my favorite trails and this is how it went down.

I started to run.

50 yards down the path my legs stopped moving in the running motion.

hmmmm….ok.   But I want to run!  I am a runner darn it!!!

So I started again.

50 more yards down the path…they stopped the running motion again and the protesting was louder…this time with a bit of jello-ness to the knees.

hmmmmm…that’s odd. Better test that again, but as much as I want to run, I am NOT interested in hurting myself or my knees.

I started running again.

A short distance later….more jello-ness in the knees and an absolute refusal to do what I KNOW my brain was telling it to do, which was to run.

The calves started cramping and protesting, as did the thighs. The knees were mushy. The only thing good was my feet in my new dorkomatics.

I settled for a 2 mile walk and simply enjoyed my surroundings and the confidence that comes with knowing I CAN run 10K…even if my legs don’t want to go 100 yards right now.

Posted by: Kim | November 28, 2009

2009 Turkey Trot-Post Race Report

The Turkey Trot is complete.  I finished!  The whole 6.2 miles and despite my fears and concerns about getting pulled off the course due to time constraints, I was not pulled!  YES!

Here is the story.  Wednesday night after work, I went to Jen’s house to stay the night.  Our friends Virg and Ingrid had come from GR to be our race fans and were picking up our race packets so we wouldn’t have to do it in the morning.  I was incredibly nervous and as you may remember from the triathlon, I get extremely chatty when nervous.  Poor Jen.  I am sure she simply endures me during these times!  We went to dinner, came back and prepared our race day clothes/bags.

Ipods?  check

Shoes?  check

New running shirt (yes I succumbed and bought a technical shirt designed to keep me warm on a cold day)- check

pants-check…..you get the idea.

Then I had to try everything on together.   Yes, as much as I deny some of my girliness, it is coming out more and more.  So I tried everything on together to make sure that it fit and was comfortable and all that.

 

The night before, trying everything on!

My new shirt is a “base layer” shirt and my official race shirt (which I can usually NEVER wear) is over top!  Yeah, so it’s a little tight, so what…

 

By some miracle, I was in bed by 9:30 and asleep by 10:00.  However, I had all sorts of crazy dreams again.  I think I am going to follow Coach in this regard.  This time I had crazy dreams about being late and missing the race.  So I woke up about every hour to check the time.  ugh!

My alarm goes off and before long I am already chatting away to Jen. On any other day, chatting at 5:30 AM would be unheard of for me…but what can I say?  Poor Jen, I hope she can forgive me.  I really don’t think I was as bad as on triathlon day though.  At least she didn’t have to escape into the shower this time.

After dressing and grabbing our stuff and some breakfast, we headed outside, into the cold, dark, rainy morning.  Seriously??  We were expecting cold.  In fact, Jen insisted on us wearing scarves so we could breathe in warm air…and that would prevent us from going into cardiac arrest. (Hey I just do what the nurse tells me to do!)  At some point I just prayed.  Seriously God, this is going to be hard enough…can it just NOT rain?

By the time we got downtown, a mere 20 minutes later, the rain had stopped.  But it was brutally cold.  I should have been a little more specific or stingy in my request for no rain and a temperature degree raise!

 

Pre-race with Ingrid and Jen-Yes it is THAT cold!

We got there super early.  Found parking easily and headed over to Cobo Hall.  People were in all sorts of costumes and they were running in them!  I saw several giant turkeys, a number of elves, a guy in a speedo (that was frightful!), a few Santa Clauses, many superhero’s, and a “good” guy (superhero) chasing a “bad” guy.  These two actually did the whole race like this.  Chasing each other like a giant game of tag!  But the ultimate costume was a group of 13 people.  12 reindeer, one of them being Rudolph and Santa.  They were all tied together with “reins” and they ran the whole thing as a group.  It was nuts!

 

We now had an hour to wait before the race began.

 

Pre-race, getting ready to head to the starting line

 

Jen and I had talked about the fact that with the time constraints on the race we may not be able to finish it.   I know I am a slow runner.  In fact some runners might dare say I am not a runner at this point because I don’t run a certain pace.  I say, I will own my race/run and you own yours.  Jen insisted that I would out run her and leave her in the dust.  I insisted the same of her.  In the end, we both agreed that we would stick together no matter what.  Well, in the first mile, it was obvious that for Jen to keep pace with me, she would have to slow WAY down.  To have her do that means that she is running for me and not herself and I wanted her to own her own race and run it for her.  She wasn’t running this race with me like Coach ran the triathlon 5k with me.  He came to that one for the purpose of keeping me going, of being a Coach.  Jen and I actually signed up independently of the other, then asked the other to join.  She was running for her, not for me.  So after about the third time of her getting a little ahead and then falling back I just told her to go ahead.  She did!!  YES!  GO JEN GO!!!

The morning turned out beautiful.  I think God decided to shine some grace down on us because by the time we headed to the starting line, the sun had risen and the temperature had gone up too.  It felt like a great day for a run! As we ran through the streets of downtown Detroit, I just couldn’t believe I was attempting this.  I couldn’t believe how nice a morning it was.  Such grace for us, I am certain God planned it for us to be this way!

I had so many thoughts as I ran.  First, I was filled with excitement as I ran with this massive amount of people.  Then later as I passed the 2 mile marker (the only mile marker I actually saw) I noticed that the crowds were much thinner on my side of the street, as they were all heading back down the other side already!  At this point I kept thinking about me, 2 years ago, and how everything was ok.  I never want to go back to “ok” again!

Then I approached the point where I needed to turn.  Going left meant I was only doing the 5k and turning right meant I was fully committed to the 10k.  For a brief second I was afraid I would accidentally go the wrong way!  Then I thought about actually intentionally going the wrong way.  I wasn’t sure I could do another 3.1 miles.  I was beginning to doubt myself.  Then I thought about Jen and her long training process.  I couldn’t make her do a 10k by herself when she has the same doubts and fears as I!  Then I thought about my post race report to Coach, Aaron, Adam and the host of others waiting to hear how I did, and I did NOT want to tell them I gave up without trying.  But mostly, the biggest deciding factor was that I did not want to disappoint myself.  I did not want to face myself Friday morning knowing I gave up without trying.  I would rather go all out and at least attempt fully what I said I wanted to do and risk getting pulled off the course because of time rather than take the easy route and for sure cross the finish line.   I was never more proud of myself than when the young volunteer looked at my bib, then looked at me and shouted “10K this way!” and I went that way.  Going big or going home!  Yep, that is me!  All the way Baby!

As I headed down this stretch of Michigan Avenue, the crowds got even thinner on my side of the street.  And now, as I passed the others coming the other direction, many would cheer me on.  I looked behind me and realized there was NO ONE in sight behind me.  As far as I could tell, I was the last runner.  Many would cross the center line to high five me.  It was crazy!  Soon I too was on my way back down Michigan, this time I could only see one or two runners in front of me.  I was pretty much alone on Michigan except for the race officials who were directing us where to go.

At one point, I was approaching the final water station and I just knew that there wouldn’t be any water left.  Seriously 12000 people had come before me!  I looked ahead and saw the volunteers sweeping the cups off the street.  They were all working hard.  One hottie looked up, saw me coming and looked surprised.  He set his broom down though.  Poured me a cup of water and held it out, waiting for me!  He was my hero of the day and I told him so!

I headed back into the downtown area and now I am passing runners again, except this time, they are on their way to their cars or to the parade.  They too cheered me on, assuring me the finish line was just around the corner.  LIARS!!!

It was 4 more corners!

I turned onto the street that takes me to Cobo Hall and while I KNEW the map in my head, I kept thinking, “I just have to get to that building and that is it!”

Except it was uphill!  Darn those race planners!!  All sorts of cheering going on and as I finally got to Cobo Hall, I hear a guy on his phone as he pulls the cones away.  “alright, the last 10k’er just came in, I am removing the road blocks!”

Seriously.

I turn the corner in front of Cobo expecting to see the Finish line.

But I don’t.  I am told it is just around the corner.

It wasn’t.

I ran another 3 blocks to another corner, where I was told it was just down the hill.

It wasn’t.

It was down the hill, around the corner, through a dark, unlit tunnel, across another stretch and finally back to Cobo Hall where they had the finish line set up. (although they were beginning to tear it down!)

Thank God, Ingrid met me on the final down hill and ran through the tunnel with me.  She said she would stay with me for a little bit, then sprint ahead to get me on camera crossing the finish line!

And that is exactly what happened.  Video will be posted as soon as I get it and figure it out!

Jen and Virg were nowhere to be found. They had cut through Cobo Hall to try and see me coming and completely missed me!  Oh well!

When it was all done, none of us wanted to watch the Parade.  We wanted food and to sit.  Sooooo we went for breakfast!

 

Post Race inside Cobo Hall! Worst Picture Ever but whatever I just ran 10K

Jen and I-Having Conquered the streets of the "D"

The fans, the photographer, and the Runners!

 

After running, breakfasting, relaxing, showering, and finally getting ready to go our separate ways to be with family…this is how this girl cleans up.

 

The hat is Jen's but I rocked it on this day!

Yes, I wore my bib # proudly all day as well as my running shoes!

oh yeah, I found out later…I wasn’t dead last.  2 others came in after me!  My official chip time was 1:46 minutes.  The clock time was 1:47:58.  My worst fear did not happen.  I did not get pulled off the course!  But I was prepared to argue, to cry and if need be to out run whoever was sent to pull me off, if that happened.  I was gonna finish that race by any means necessary!

 

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